Cowboy's Lament

I’m missing you so badly today, sweet girl. Mama was listening to her iPod today, and one of the songs that used to lull you to sleep from the time I brought you home from the hospital, came on. It stopped me in my tracks to hear the familiar sounds and a million tiny memories of us rushed over me. I could suddenly feel your sweet, powdery skin pressed up to mine as you nursed and smiled your baby smiles. I could feel the tickles of your newborn hairs tickling my eyelashes as I remembered nuzzling the soft, sweet folds of your baby neck. I was back in that moment with just a few chords of a song. I miss you, girl, so much. What I wouldn’t give to scoop you up and twirl you into one of our famous dance parties right this very minute. Mama thinks about you every day and every night, hoping that you will always understand how hard it is for me to miss out on you growing up. Daddy takes good care of you, but he’s no substitute for Mommy, and I’m sorry I’m not with you every minute. I love you, Cori girl. I miss you. I can’t wait to see you. I’m kissing my necklace for you tonight, sweetheart, and hoping that somehow, someway, you can feel my love in this moment and every moment.

The Cowboy’s Lament by Jewel
“Oh my angel
Sweet, sweet angel
Come to me swiftly
This night so still
For dawn does come swiftly
I’ve been gone so long
But your face is so lovely
It keeps my faith strong
My hands are unsteady
I’m so far from home”